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I was given the name of tingting.Born on 8th May 1990. Family and friends are important to me. SJAB is my passion.Helping the needy is my lifelong mission. Keeping promise is my principle. Like normal girls i have a him that i value a lot. Thursday, December 17, 2009 | 9:57 PM
Reflections of 2009 Family i think i haven been doin a good job as a granddaughter , daughter and elder sister. why? cos i think they are the ppl i spend least time with. so mummy is always showin me black face, daddy say throughout the one year i spend less than 1/4 of it at home. sometimes i can don see my bro for days. my grandparents i sometimes miss gathering at their house cos of sjab. i feel guilty, but this year i didnt do anything abt it, perhaps its time i do something abt it. cos they are the ppl that will stand by my side no matter wat happens. School i still think i am not putting in enough efforts for my studies. if this goes on i will nv reach my GPA 3 target. i should put it as above sjab which i really really have prob doing it. but i will do it. i have had great mentors for my yr2. the both of them are super caring and pin much hopes on me. :x these hopes actually act as a stress contributor as well as a motivator. stress cos i scared i will disappoint them , motivator cos i don wan to let them down so i got to push myself harder to do well. and i took up the post of being a leader this semester cos i wish to make a difference. i guess i did? i donno. but i do put in the effort to remind all abt class test, change venue and pass down msg. i guess i was kind of taken for granted cos my sms go out , nth came back. i sort of "say" the class la. so aft tt ppl reply. i think sayin a thx is like basic maners? but some still doesn't la. then come to project works, this sem is better , things are don chop chop, no last min work. but still there still there are irritating ppl that don do work , MC on presentation, and hav the cheek to say we ignore her n stuff. its like u are in poly take initiative can! had a class outing to body works. most of the class turn up. but i think the class still not as bonded. i donno wat to do, and donno what i should do. i think i should jus leave things the way it is ba. mayb it will get better by itself? or remaining the same also nt tt bad afterall?:x SJAB The major thing that took up my time. and i must say i enjoyed my time spend there la. i am 1yr ++ into officership. i guess i learnt a lot la. but i must say this 1 yr into officership changed my mind of how long i stayin in sjab from lifetime to i donno. cos i don think i am really goin to stay a lifetime here. there will come a time i will move on in life but i donno when the time will come and i don see it coming any soon. i used to think that its a must for me to be in sjab cos i am needed . but i come to realise tt not the case. sjab will still move on wit or w/o me.its not sjab need me but its me that need sjab! cos its been a big of me. common qns of frenes: why u go back? wa go sjab agn? when u quitting? don u think is a waste of time? LOL. i think u jus got to be in it , then u will understand ba. cos no words can explain de. i took up many projects this year, lets talk abt it one by one. Zone FAC i am in log tgt wit willie and chelsa. i wanna say sorry to the both of them cos i think they felt rather out cos i am doin everything myself. i am really sorry. one bad point of me is that i like to do things myself cos its easier. this cos other ppl to not learn as much as they should. i tink the log this time round is near perfection? cos all that is needed is there. the only prob is the score sheet. but it was solved after all. but i think i did nt do well cos i did nt collect the name tags back in the end. but i must say i did learn new things. OTC 09 holdin both DY admin and hotel assistance mentor. i think i did nt do a good job la. but i think i did tried to help as and when as i can. this course i realise my flaws nt only as a officer but as a person. i am still workin on the flaws. i think i am slightly better as compare to that time now? at least i am in more control?:x that wat i think la. i met a lot of ppl in this course. some of which become ppl that i could have HTHT wit. :) and also this yr is the 1st year otc has a commissioning parade. i was so proud n touched on that day! its not only a significant day for the trainees but also in sjab 74 years of history. the greatest thing i learn frm the course is dare to make a difference and beileve the impossible.i always complain to the CC (Mr william lim) that i rather be part of this yr course cos its much more meaningful:x but ya, i am happy i joined as a instructor.:D aft the course i still see some of the newly commissioned officers workin hard in their individual zones, continue to make a difference at where they are:) i hope this will carry on. ANCO 09 log agn, my DY is ken n chien wan. had great fun workin wit them:) but if they learn something, i nt too sure. i hope they learn ba. the strength frm my corps are saddening. the course strength is even more disappointing. but i am gald we moved on with wat we have and make the best out of it. aaron last project in sjab. i am happy to work wit him agn. the last time i work wit him in zone events is when i am sec 3 and is jus a CPL? and now he got to address me as mdm. so don like it. but ya, having him back is great. his scoldin is nt as fierce le, old le ba. however his aura is still there. :x the committee is a young one. had fun and a lot of crazy time tgt. nice camp. and i wanna complain! cos i put in so much efforts to think of different breakfast for them, they say my food not nice:( tsk! but nvm la, its over! i did my best so no regrets:D BNCO 09 i think this is the slackest post i ever got? i didnt do as much as my previous posts and i am quite relax. jus waiting for time to past and ppl to report sick.and s2 is label as fierce:x i donno is my prob or my advisor prob. mayb is mine la, i always label as fierce:x even by classmates. hahaha. then i wanna thx my advisor, DYs and members. they did a fabulous job, i cant do w/o any one of them.and ya, this is the first camp i didnt look forward to goin, i even had the thot of skippin. i guess that period of time i am lost. but ya, this camp gave me the chance to think and find my way back. Zone 8 NCO Course the camp that i went as visitor. seeing is nt a easy task.there are times that u jus cant tahan seeing things the ways it is and wan to step in, but in ur mind u will think its nt ur zone camp and u are jus a visitor.so that will pull u back. but i did say the jnco course ppl. but i did nt say tt much either. i did more talkin to their instructors i think. differences is great. of cos learning points are discovered.first time to ubin. nice experience. and know new ppl as well la. yup:D Corps Still not as fabulous as what we target.but things are improving. having the sec4s grad joining the team is great. although that means there is guiding job to be done but yeah i am happy to do so. senior sort of "left" us le. sad la. she is my/our pillar, and now she is gone i got to stand on my own. i am not sure if i can do as good as she did. but i will try my best to. next year willie will be into NS too. enough of nt so happy thing. so CT has attendance prob, mayb next yr only hav 2 teams. but i think my teams are driven. they participate in their own learnin which makes it faster and easier. i hope we can win something, no we WILL win something. :) i am happy some grads that are not so active but i am still in contact wit is willing to come back to give us a hand if the need arise. :) and yes, this corps wont be what it is w/o my TICs. they are fabulous ! EXTREMELY supportive:) to be frank i did think of leavin sjab nt very long ago. cos i think i suddenly see no meaning in everything cos its jus nt moving, not my corps but above. but yup, BNCO 09 made me find my way back and reason why i am still here cos i really did a lot of thinkin. sometimes i wonder how ppl jus say quit like tt and don come back. cos i really cant do so. i am gald things are fallin into the right place. :) r/s i hurt him a lot. its all my fault. but i guess he is ok now and have move on wit life. i hope he will find a person that knows how to treasure him more than i do, he deserve a better one. i hope someday down the road when we mit agn, i will see smile on his face and we will be able to talk like we used to b4 we are tgt. :) all the best davin! take care! best birthday:) not cos of the presents, but the efforts. goin all the way to NP to give me the surprise and the flour session. dinner aft tt wit the TICs then video made for me:) then lunch wit sjab peeps and the " chocolate milk bath" at vivo level 3. it jus make my day. :) i will nv forget this day even if i get dementia! LOL! :P the year to come... will be filled wit sjab as usual. but i will be doin more for my family and school i guess. goin genting on CNY wit family and Hong kong wit school. Seriously i cant wait for next year to come:) Notepaper.
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